WAKE UP & LIVE

WAKE UP AND LIVE by Bob Marley and Anthony Davis (from Bobmarley.com)


One, two, three, four!

Wake up and live, y'all,
Wake up and live!
Wake up and live now!
Wake up and live!

Life is one big road with lots of signs,
So when you riding through the ruts, don't you complicate your mind:
Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy!
Don't bury your thoughts; put your vision to reality, yeah!

All together now:
Wake up and live (wake up and live, y'all),
Wake up and live (wake up and live),
wake up and wake up and live, yeah! (wake up and live now),
Wake up and (wake up and live) - wake up and live!
Rise ye mighty people, ye-ah!
There's work to be done,
So let's do it-a little by little:
Rise from your sleepless slumber! Yes, yeah! Yes, yeah!
We're more than sand on the seashore,
We're more than numbers.
All together now:
Wake up and live now, y'all!
(Wake up and live) Wake up and live!
Wake up and live, y'all!
(Wake up and live) Wake up and live now!
You see, one - one cocoa full a basket,
Whey they use you live big today: tomorrow you buried in-a casket.
One - one cocoa full a basket, yeah, yes!
Whey they use you live big today: tomorrow you bury in-a casket.

W'all together now:
(Wake up and live now!) Wake up and live! Oh! Yeah-eah!
(Wake up and live!) Uh!
(Wake up and live now!) Wake up and live!
(Wake up and live) Keep on playin'!
(Wake up and live, y'all) Uh! Yeah! Yeah!
(Wake up and live!)
(Wake up and live now!)
(Wake up and live!) Break it down!
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[Saxophone solo]
Come on, man!
How is it feelin' over there?
(Wake up and live now) All right!
(Wake up and live!) Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Uh!
Come on, man!
You gotta wake up and live!
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Life is one big road with lots of signs, yes!
So when you riding through the ruts, don't you complicate your mind:
Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy!
Don't bury your thoughts; put your dream to reality, yeah!

W'all together now:
(Wake up and live, y'all)
(Wake up and live!) Wake up and live, yea-eah!
(Wake up and live now!)
(Wake up and live!)
Wake up and live now!
(Wake up and live) Wo-oh!
Wake up and live now!
Wake up and live

Risk

Do we ever stop to think that the risks we take in life are risks towards becoming whole, instead of risking being hurt? It's like gambling and expecting to lose. Praying and expecting that our prayers will not be answered. It's a matter of perspective, like so many other things. I'm going to keep taking risks...Not saying I'll be foolish and bet my house on something crazy. Let's challenge ourselves to be more than we "think" we are. More than biological and genetic programming dictates. If we are made in the image and likeness of God, we can create worlds and lives for ourselves that we find joy in living. We don't have to struggle always in to eternity. But we do have to work at having better mental, physical, material, emotional and spiritual lives. The King's dominion...king-dome...kingdom is within...mind. Align it with your higher self, you'll reach great heights.

From The Dhammapada

Hard to find is a man of great wisdom: such a man is not born everywhere. Where such a wise man is born, that family thrives happily. -The Dhammapada

Emotional Expression

Is sharing too much possible if it is how U feel? Does withholding information protect us? How does sharing our feelings make us vulnerable to others? A Course in Miracles shares that no one can hurt us and that only two emotions exist, fear and love. Every other emotion is an off shoot to the two. Do U operate in fear, in love or both? Are U in touch with which emotion drives you? Wholeness. Emptiness. Fragmentation. Openness.

There are many ways that we can express ourselves emotionally...It doesn't have to always mean talking. It can be creating something. Creating from the depths of our souls. It can be writing poetry or a love song or journaling. It can be us being honest with ourselves about ourselves and others. We don't have to reveal more than we are comfortable sharing with others, but we should always be about the business of knowing where we are, what's going on within us. Sharing it is up to U.

Emotional expression is about being honest with ourselves and releasing energy that e-motions create. Energy contained eventually finds a way to release itself...when it collects, especially negative emotions, dis-ease...disease grows. I share because I must. I don't want my "biography to become my biology"...qouted from the works of Caroline Myss, Medical Intuitive.

Are we effected by the Earthquake?

"All the planet is vibrating" from the quake, said Enzo Boschi, the head of Italy’s National Geophysics Institute. Speaking on SKY TG24 TV, Boschi said the quake even disturbed the Earth’s rotation.

If all the planet Earth is vibrating, then So are we.

Quake May Have Made Earth Wobble--US Scientists | Reuters.com

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - The deadly Asian earthquake may have permanently accelerated the Earth's rotation -- shortening days by a fraction of a second -- and caused the planet to wobble on its axis, U.S. scientists said on Tuesday.

Richard Gross, a geophysicist with NASA's Jet Propulsion Laboratory in California, theorized that a shift of mass toward the Earth's center during the quake on Sunday caused the planet to spin 3 microseconds, or 3 millionths of a second, faster and to tilt about an inch on its axis.

When one huge tectonic plate beneath the Indian Ocean was forced below the edge of another "it had the effect of making the Earth more compact and spinning faster," Gross said.

Gross said changes predicted by his model probably are too minuscule to be detected by a global positioning satellite network that routinely measures changes in Earth's spin, but said the data may reveal a slight wobble.

The Earth's poles travel a circular path that normally varies by about 33 feet, so an added wobble of an inch is unlikely to cause long-term effects, he said.

"That continual motion is just used to changing," Gross said. "The rotation is not actually that precise. The Earth does slow down and change its rate of rotation."

When those tiny variations accumulate, planetary scientists must add a "leap second" to the end of a year, something that has not been done in many years, Gross said.

Scientists have long theorized that changes on the Earth's surface such as tide and groundwater shifts and weather could affect its spin but they have not had precise measurements to prove it, Caltech seismologist Hiroo Kanamori said.

"Even for a very large event, the effect is very small," Kanamori said. "It's very difficult to change the rotation rate substantially."

© Reuters 2004. All Rights Reserved. Science News Article | Reuters.com

I hope that everyone is in good health- mentally, physically and spiritually. I have been thinking about the Earthquake and the resulting Tsunami in Asia...I have seen the pictures of people in the media...The pain and devastation on their faces. I realized that I have been sensitized to seeing such images. I don't think that that's healthy. As Americans we are so far removed from things that occur throughout the globe because it's not impacting us directly. I didn't lose my house, my job or a family member. I don't think that that's right for me. We are a human family. We must extend ourselves beyond ourselves... our little sphere of existence.

The Earthquake did not happen in the United States, but it's impact effects us just the same. The Earth that WE live on experienced a major jolt. If energy is never created or destroyed, what has happened to the energy that ripples from one part of the country to another? I do not have the exact answer, but I do believe that, although possibly subtle, we will feel the effects of this devastation. The mass, collective grief that is permeating that area of the globe won't stay there...energy moves. The effects on us may be minor because we HAVE been sensitized to things we've seen on television. We don't REALLY feel anymore. Sometimes what we experience as a feeling is the correct, PROGRAMMED response. People die, we are supposed to be sad. Some of us have the ability to absorb the emotions of others...sometimes a good thing , sometimes a bad thing.

Let's extend our prayers to the Earth and the Human Family. U will find that we are actually praying for ourselves when we pray for others. We are all impacted. Pay attention to subtle changes in your feelings during these times. Do U feel sad and can't really figure out why because everything is going well? Like natural wildfires these disasters come, Mother earth is being herself...

The people DIRECTLY impacted by this disaster have to rebuild mind. body and spirits from the most basic, cellular (no, not cell phone, but cells of body)levels. Let's not wait for a catastrophe in our own lives before we take notice...pay attention and (re)build our own lives. What we do on an individual level impacts us all collectively. We are connected. No matter how much we are told we are an army of one. We are not armies of one. No one can survive with just themselves. Individualism supports Capitalism, Consumerism and selfishness. We are a communal people. If that's not true, why are you here and why have we created ways out of NO ways to stay connected with each other? We are even connected to those people that we've never met. We are connected in our grief regardless of the catalyst that precipitated the grief. We've all lost something dear to us even if it was your beloved goldfish.

Well, those are my thoughts. I pray that we continue to evolve, continue to grow (not necessarily wider, but higher in our thinking and spirits).

Love to All! Peace(Harmony Within), Love(Highest Vibrational Energy), Light(Wisdom)
BG

Yahoo! News - Prince, Madonna Tours Top Draws in Difficult Year

Yahoo! News - Prince, Madonna Tours Top Draws in Difficult Year

I made two more hats today and started on the third. I visited my family yesterday and left with several requests for hats. I bought more yarn today. I picked up a few extra things at the craft store. I am becoming a regular. The yarn I use is expensive... I gotta watch my spending for supplies. It's getting late and I am tired. My eyelids aren't broke yet, but I think I sprained them.

Oh yeah, today is the first day of Kwanzaa. Habari Gani? Umoja/Unity...If U don't know, ask somebody.

Peace.

Kwanzaa

Happy Holidays!!!

I haven't felt so good today for a variety of reasons. Some I understand and others I do not. Vulnerability...I am in a space where I am feeling a little more exposed. Like I revealed too much. Why does it matter? I don't know. What is my agenda? Did n't know I had one. Today, I just want to raise my spirits. I think I am a little low because I have not replaced the Christmas holiday with something that has more meaning. I do not have a ritual for this time of year. So, there is a void there. I am beginning to believe that I get sad during this time of year. Last year was good because I had major distractions. I filled the void with other things. Today, how I feel today may just be a moment of acknowledging where I am at this moment. I tried to pull out my old security blankets but it still left me unfullfilled. Just doesn't do it anymore.

Some friendships fall to the level of games being played with authenticity is not agreed upon. What does that mean? I know what I mean but don't feel like articulating it. There have been times over the past few weeks where I have written of mourning the loss of a relationship. Today, I am feeling that loss again. The feeling waxes and wanes. Like the tide it comes and goes. I know that this will pass. It's a bitch sometimes. Navigating interactions with others. There were days when I felt I was an island unto myself. I was miserable and that was bullshit. I need other people...I must choose realistic connections that give what I need. My choices have to be reality based. I am moving to that place right now. Movement requires an energy, a force to move us. I'm just in my moment...the moment right before i accept the reality of this situation and head in the direction of where I need to be.

I'm just having a moment. A moment where I have to deal with me where I am with no distractions. I had a dream the other night that suggested that I wanted to escape...But from what? I'm not really sure yet.

Where I am right now has nothing to do with anyone else. It has to do with me...it is my phase, me dealing with me. I hate giving my power to others...even my moments of confusion...I want to own them or view these moments as blessings from the Creator, opportunities to get it right, make it, life, better. I can't blame another for anything. It's all a lesson being taught in earth school.

Reason, Season, Lifetime...I think this one was a reason. I have learned somethings, specific things about me and I am appreciative of that...now what do I do with what I have learned? I am still trying to figure that out.

For a minute I thought that I revealed too much to another, but I now realize that my revealing, my sharing my honesty with myself was needed. Honesty.

Seasons

It's amazing that winter has come and it's so cold...colder than I've ever remember it feeling. Not just the temperature, but the numbing and blunting of feelings. Why do I always talk about feelings? Well it's how I process the world around me. SOmetimes I get tired of feeling and want to escape for a bit...Can't retreat to numbness again. Balance is what's needed here. I've been here before...cold. Trying to get warmed up...again.

tuesday was the official start of winter. But which season am I in?

Ummm...

This cream of wheat is way too thick. I usually make a good bowl of cream of wheat but not this morning. My first day of leisure...I'm going to enjoy it and not start counting the # of days left. Just be...chill and enjoy.


Ummm, I can't eat no more of this. I've had enough...lol

I AM DONE

I am finished with work until the new year 2005. I now have a moment to pause and gain perspective...a much needed new perspective.

Winter Break

Today is my last day a work until the New Year 2005. I am going to run out of that building like a slave running from dogs sent out by Master because he scared one gon' git away. I'm joking but serious all at the same time.

I need this break...bad. I have a little work to do while I'm off just to stay on top of things and not get behind. That's good compared to last year when I got caught up and waited until the last minute and had to stay up late in to the night to finish reports.

Anyway...I'm out in 6, 7 more hours. Thank God!!!

Passion

Life without it is meaningless. It doesn't have to be sexual. But it does need to arouse the senses...the mind. I am having many memories many reconnections with self as I watch this video.

Sign O' The Times

Oooh My Goodness!!!! Man, I have been craving the a copy of the video Sign O' The Times by Prince from the 80's. The album, yes it was on vinyl originally when it came out. I was in high school. A double album with every song a hit in my book. Prince was King...I had been an admirer since I was 14 when Purple Rain (Gotham City...Ha!) came out. I know every word....every sound and moan he and everyone else makes in this video (Sign O' The Times). I remember when I was sitting of the backseat of my mom's car...we were driving in Richmond...and heard this song on the radio. It was Sign O' The Time. The part that got me was "It's silly, no? when a rocket ship explodes and everybody still wanna fly" I had watched the replay of the space shuttle exploding in the sky...I walked in to science glass and it played over and over again. It was my first global tragedy that I had lived through. My mom and Dad had the civil rights era that was broadcast on television. They had had their moments of universal, collective pain. This was the first of mine. The events that impacted my psyche.

Anyway, My man main Prince wrote the soundtrack to the life I have lived. He has been with me, his songs through every phase of my life. I remember my feelings, I feel them again with each album, song, CD. And when I am confused or disjointed I play Prince to help me reintegrate my selves. It was with Prince that I became a dreamer...A believer that things can always be better. I too merged God, the Creater with base, the not so godly parts of my self.

Stopped thinking in dichotomies. It was no longer either/or...it was Both/And. He has always made me wanna be better. Maybe we both have a Royalty Complex. His name Prince and mine Patrice meaning one of nobility plus I am a Leo ruled by the Sun, Aton, Ra the Sun God.

I don't thing that there is a person on the Earth who has influenced me more than Prince Rogers Nelson.

My favorite song from this album is "If I Was Your GirlFriend".. Enjoy!!
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Prince - If I Was Your Girlfriend Lyrics

If I was your girlfriend
would you remember
To tell me all of the things you forgot when I was your man?
If I was your best friend
would you let me toke care of you?
Do all the things that only a best friend can?
If I was your girlfriend
if I was your girlfriend.

If I was your girlfriend
would you let me dress you?
I mean
help you pick out your clothes before we got out?
Not that you're helpless
but sometime

Sometime those are the things that bein' in love's about.

If I was your one and only friend
would you run to me
If somebody hurt yov
even if that somebody was me?
Sometime I trip on how happy we could be. Please!
If I was your girlfriend
if I was your girlfriend.

Would you let me wash your hair?
Could I make you breakfast sometime?
Or could we iust hang out? Go to the movies and cry together?
'Cause to me
baby
that would be so fine.

If I was your girlfriend
baby
can I dress you? . . .

Sugar
do you know what I'm saying to you this evening?
Maybe you think I'm being a little self-centered

Bvt I want to be all of the things you are to me

Surely
surely you can see.

Is it really necessary for me to go out of the room
Just because you wanna undress?
You don't have to make children to make love.
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SUNLIGHT

This page needed some color, some light, some Sun

"The Wire" Season Finally

Can't wait....Umm, ok, yes I can...I gotta go to work tomorrow and right after I watch The Wire it's time for bed.

BUT I SO LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING THIS EPISODE TONIGHT.

WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS

2 Days

I took 2 days off from exercise, but I am definitely getting back on the bike today.

I left the house yesterday to pick up a couple of things from the store. I was gone for a total of about a half hour. I am less inclined to go outside when it is so cold. There is so much traffic on the street because of people shopping that it's not worth it to jjust go hang out. It feels better to stay in right now. I miss living closer to DC. There was more to do and I was closer to those things to do.

They say it might snow this evening in to the early morning. I would usually do a Snow Dance like a Native American dancing for rain. But not this time...My mom starts a new job tomorrow. She is a driver, so I'd like for her to have a successfull 1st day. But if it happens...Yippee!!! The schools here shut down at the drop of a dime. :-)

I am thankfull to my friends and family, people in my life who keep me going. My mother, brother, sister and nephews...I am thankfull to them for just existing. Green Beans...I am thankfull for... with hot sauce and season salt, the spice of life.

Manifesting with the Moon

Manifesting with the Moon

"Since the beginning of mankind, people have looked to the moon and stars for guidance. Ancient cultures measured and gauged the movement of celestial bodies to assist them with decision making and fortune-telling.

Learning how to work with the energies of the moon helps attune us to the rhythm and flow of Universal Energy in our life. In astrology, the energy of the moon is what guides us and is the directive force in living our true path. The moon carries the goddess energy, a receptive, yin energy (feminine energies). Working with the cycles of the moon allows us to position our creative forces in an almost serendipitous way. When working with moon energy, we draw in the energy of being in the “right” place at the “right” time.

Each lunar month, beginning with the new moon, has eight Lunar Phases, each lasting approximately 3.7 days. The power of the Lunar Phases deeply affects many aspects of life on the planet including ocean tides, fertility and human behavior. Each Lunar Phase carries with it a specific theme of action that draws situations into your life that allow the theme of the lunar month to unfold perfectly in front of you. Working with the specific action and theme of the Lunar Phase allows you to maximize your manifestation strategy and allows the goddess energy of the moon to work with you to magically bring your dreams into reality.

The energy of a lunar cycle grows as the moon slowly reveals and then hides herself again. Each lunar cycle leads to a new lunar cycle, allowing you to systematically expand on a manifesting theme. With conscious awareness, manifesting with the moon can lead to an ever-expanding spiral of spiritual, emotional and material growth.

When working with the Lunar Phases, it is important to log or journal what you are creating with the moon. By paying attention to the Lunar Phases you can take appropriate action and reflect on the energies that you are drawing into your life. Upon completion of a lunar cycle, you can evaluate the process and tailor your goals and strategies for the next lunar cycle.

The first phase of the cycle, called the New Moon, is a time for planting new seeds of growth. This is the time of new beginnings and new directions. On a practical side, this is the time to start a new venture, initiate new business contacts, start an advertising campaign and visualize where you are headed both spiritually and emotionally.

The next moon phase is called the Crescent Moon. The Crescent MOON is a time for developing a clear, practical plan about where you are headed and how to get there. The energy of the Crescent Moon is about fantasy and imagination. During this phase, allow yourself to daydream about the goals you set during the New Moon. See where this concept could take you!

The First Quarter follows the Crescent Moon. The First Quarter energy is about taking action. This is a time that the Universe sends you the power to “just do it.” Functioning with trust and knowing will empower you during this phase. Fearlessly drop all hesitation and move forward.

The Gibbous Moon is next. This is one of the most powerful phases of the moon and requires that you simply sit still and see what comes to you. This is a time when people or opportunities that can help you with your goal will appear in your life. Share your dreams with others during this time and see what gets activated!

The Full Moon ends the Gibbous Moon time. The energy of the full moon is like a little vacation before the harvest. The day after the full moon can be a day of quiet and reflection. You may feel the energy of this time rising in you and as this cycle comes to a close, you will receive more energy that you had before and you will be prepared to enter into the harvesting phase of the moon’s journey.

The Disseminating Moon is the harvest time. This is the time to reap what you have sown, a time for manifestation. With this moon cycle all of your hard work will bear fruit. Plan workshops and presentations for this time period.

The Last Quarter is the time to initiate change. Now is the time to evaluate the products of this lunar cycle and let go of the things that are not beneficial. If the Disseminating Moon is like harvest time, the Last Quarter is the time that the old crops are plowed into the soil to fertilize for the new crop. This is a time of reflection and refinement of the concept. New ideas may slowly start to take hold in your mind. This is a time to complete old projects and let go of strategies and situations that aren't working.

The Balsamic Moon is the last Lunar Phase. This is the time to focus to the future. The seeds for the new have been planted. The time of retreat and retrospection is now done and the energy is now on looking forward. This is a time to surrender all fears from the past and play with the potentials of the future as you prepare for a new lunar cycle.

Working with the cycles of the moon can be tremendously empowering and remove a lot of energetic resistance to manifesting your desires. Go out tonight and sing to the moon! She is simply sitting there, waiting to pour her golden light onto your dreams." Monthly Newsletter - The Center for the New Age

BeautyFULL

BeautyFULL Image of Zanibar

Thoughts

It's not easy navigating needs that require others to do something, be something. I guess that's why people establish relationships and make agreements to be this or that to each other. It helps to have more than one person you count on to meet your needs. No hidden fees, or contracts...service guaranteed. Ooops! I'm talking about getting needs met, not cell phones.

Anyway, I get tired of holding back sometimes. Not fully expressing. I had someone in my life that allowed me to be free with them. But that friendship, that relationship has changed. I could grieve, acknowledge the loss or keep moving. I think I'll do both. Friends are like Lays potato chips, you can't have just one.

3rd Day

Today is my third day of exercising. Yay!!! I will continue. I have to make that the priority each day. It feels great to get it done. I am accomplishing my goals. That's the BEST!

Letting Go...

Isn't always easy, but it is necessary. I have my seatbelt buckled. It's way past time to enjoy the ride. Every thing is what it is...Energy. Moving to the next level...Moving, moving, moving. Sometimes it takes a while, but with persistence and determination we can achieve our goals. It just requires letting go of the way we believe it's supposed to look, smell, and feel AND being open to it showing up in other forms. I want love....I have love. I want success...I have success. Work is still required. We were never meant to stay the same. That's why we look different in some way year after year. That's why we have the capacity to reason, to think, to love, to care. We are here to become new and improved versions of ourselves, our parents, our ancestors. I let go enough to embrace a new me. A different me. A 2005 model of BG. Well U know the non-alias me. Grow and expand in Spirit. I seek to be fed, not of bread but those things that the spirit world, the only world has to teach. I re-dedicate myself to the renewal of mind, body and Spirit. I am ThankFULL for all that I have...even ancestral memory... A point of reference of how FULL life is. There is so much more to come. I receive with open hands and heart.

HBO: The Wire - Community

Wooooooo!!!!!! This past episode was the B.E.S.T.. It's a must see. I think I will watch it again. The Season finally is Sunday. I love Wood Harris that plays the character Avon Barksdale. Tom, where U at? We gotta finish our analysis of the last episode. call me man!
HBO: The Wire - Community

If I could, I would promise you Forever.
But for now, I only have this minute. -BG

Richard Pryor's Website

If you like Dave Chappell or just plain old good comedy, U must get the DVD of the Richard Pryor Show. It was way, way, way ahead of it's time.

Masaru Emoto's Website

He has a great book that I am reading now. The Hidden Messages in Water

Masaru Emoto's Website

Exercise

Today...this morning I started an exercise program. In the past, I would always start and stop after a few days. I can't afford to do that anymore. It will improve my overall health dramatically. An exercise room will be opening up in the community center. That's right up the hill from my house. I will continue to work out on my stationary bike until it opens. I just have to be consistent, even if it's 15 mintues a day. I gotta keep moving.

The Season of Giving

Giving...It is a great virtue. We must decide/choose how we can best give, what we will and can give. It can be material, emotional, energetic...This season of giving... Christmas, Christ-mas...does not have to be limited to December. It saddens me that this season, this time of year has become a great time of sadness and depression for many people. Mothers are sad because they don't have the material resources to buy their children "things". Others are sad because they are not with their families. We have the ability to make this and every holiday/holy- day exactly what we want it to be for us. We can create family whereever we are when family isn't near. We can choose to emphasize the meaning behind Christmas rather than the consumeristic commercialism it has become about. We are bombarded with the message that we must buy, buy, buy. We are actually setting our children and ourselves up when we adopt and practice this to an excessive degree. There is nothing wrong with giving gifts to others. It is a wonderfull gesture and act...to give. Let's be conscious of the spirit that this season takes on. Christmas is not about amassing DEBT. (green for prosperity). IT's not about sadness and accumulating things. Give gifts with meaning. Give the gift of yourself...make something. Share your creativity. Write a song. Frame a beauty-FULL love poem for the one you love. Give of your time. Don't wait for December to be nice and loving. The Earth needs it year round.

Kwanzaa is a nice addition to this holiday season.

We have to put meaning and ritual back into our lives that reflect who we are and what we want to be.

Busy, Productive Week

This week has really gone by FAST. I have been busier than usual. Not busier because there is more work, but busier because I have been more committed to using the time at work to do actual work. I am enjoying it more because I am practicing presence. Staying in the moment and not allowing myself to be distracted by other things such as socializing. Of course, there are other things that we'd rather do besides work. But if I really expect to get a pay check every month, which I do, than I need to earn it. We get out, what we put in.

I realized that I was cheating my job by not being about there business for the hours that I was there. If I was in private practice and actually got paid for the amount of work I did on my job, I would be one broke sistah. I am remembering universal law. And doing unto others as I would want done to me. I am not saying that I will always work 8 FULL hours a day without any deviation. But I am saying that I will be more conscious of staying present and focused on the task at hand. Utilizing the time I have to accomplish tasks that are job related so that I don't have to bring stuff home and work during MY time. The bottom line is that the work has to get done. It always does. But I will never have job satisfaction if I am not present at my job.

We've got to pay our dues...put the time in and build the skills. I used to think that I could come right out of graduate school and be at the top of my game. I wanted to skip many, many levels. I realized early on that it didn't work that way. We are in a microwave society. We want every thing QUICK. The easier you obtain it the easier it is to lose it. As Prince sang, we have to be "willing to do the work". There are no short cuts in life. Longevity, sticking to it...practice...it all pays off. I am liking my job more because I am practicing presence. I have not been there wishing I was somewhere else this week.

I've put a lot of time, energy and practice in to what I do. I have been a social worker for a little over 12 years now. I have a career. I have a great deal of skill, knowledge and practice. I have not fully appreciated what I have and what I do. It is time that I did so more consistently.

This is sort of my confessional today. I have not been giving my all and have expected all my money. Yes, I have a lot of wiggle room. I can come and go as I please at my job. But that doesn't mean that I should take total advantage of it. Yes, there are times when things are so intense that I do need mental health, ME time. And I need to take it. It helps me do the job. But there are other times where I need to be more focus.

I realize that and I will. I want to be happier with my job. I have seen that I am when I put in what I want to get out. I feel a great sense of accomplishment when I complete a task. I feel great when I contribute to the well-being of a child or family. I down played what I do, partly because the gratification was immediate. Sometimes it's never there externally. But I am looking internally for that which I sought outside. I don't have much idle time anymore because I have filled it with work that I am supposed to be doing anyway. When I work I'm getting things done. When it gets done I feel less pressure. When I feel less pressure I am happy and I can relax and not think of what I have to do. It's a cycle that I have a direct impact on. We all have the ability to impact change in our lives. I gotta exercise it and stop waiting and seeeing what going to happen. Be the change I seek...I remember that.

My Little Cousin doing things! from Athletics Newsdesk

Proctor earns MEAC Rookie of the Week honors
December 6, 2004
By: Kevin Paige
Basketball: Men's Competition

BALTIMORE, Md. (Dec. 6, 2004)—Darryl Proctor was named Mid-Eastern Athletic Conference Rookie of the Week this afternoon by the conference office.

A native of District Heights, Md., Proctor leads the team in rebounding (7.6 rpg) and is second on the team in scoring, averaging 10.0 points a game. Proctor, who has started every game this season, tallied career highs in points (15) and rebounds (11) to help lead Coppin to its first victory of the season, a 67-53 defeat of North Carolina A&T on Saturday. It was the first collegiate double-double for Proctor, who also added a career-high three steals and a block to his totals and the first double-double by a Coppin player this season.

Proctor began the week by leading the Eagles in scoring with 11 points and eight rebounds at No. 15 Texas (11/29) and totaled a then- career-high with 13 points and nine rebounds against Oklahoma (12/1).

The Eagles (1-4, 1-0 MEAC) return to action tonight as they host South Carolina State in a conference doubleheader game at the Coppin Center. Tipoff for the women’s game is at 5:30 p.m., with the men to follow at 7:30 p.m.

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New Age Cities Numerology..Try This

Thanks HolisticLocs for sharing this on your blog.

I am 7-Destiny
These people have psychic abilities which they may use professionally or might experience as periodic hunches and uncanny intuitions. They are extremely sensitive, not only to the feelings of loved ones and the world around them but also to emotional undercurrents. For instance, their dreams may be particularly vivid and significant. They also have powerful imaginations that can lead them into escapism or flights of fantasy, sometimes with unfortunate results. Sevens are contemplative, introspective and may become quite remote and withdrawn at times; this can set them apart from others. They tend to worry, which can badly affect their health.


1- Expression
The first thing you notice about this person is their confidence. They usually appear very sure of themselves (so much so, that sometimes this comes across as arrogance), even if their other numbers tell a different story. They are popular and find it easy to make friends. If you ever feel a crisis coming on, seek out someone with this number -their supportive, don't-worry-it'll-all-be-OK attitude will help you through.

5-heart
No matter how stable or sensible this person appears on the surface, it's a different story underneath. They feel an underlying dissatisfaction and an nagging sense that life could be much more exciting if only they knew how to make it so. Not surprisingly, this restlessness mat adversely affect their relationships. Fives may find it difficult to deal with authority figures, especially if such people are restrictive or dictatorial. Fives' liveliness, charm and versatility wins them many friends, but they must be on the same intellectual wavelength. Fives may underestimate their mental abilities when young, so it's only later in their lives that they study subjects in depth.

6-Personality
This person is an instinctive helper of others, someone who needs to be of service. They may express this through their job (which may be a vocation), their family life or the way they fill their spare time. As a result, they are usually given plenty of responsibility, although they may take this to extremes at times becoming too perfectionist and nit-picking. They find it easy to handle money and are especially successful when they're self-employed - they have the requisite stamina and desire to do well. These people are loving and need a harmonious relationship, yet they can be intolerant of people who don't measure up to their high standards, not only emotionally but also physically and sartorially.

New Age Cities Numerology

Student Teaching

"When the student is ready, the teacher will appear." I don't know where that quote originated but I have found it to be true in my life. People show up at just the right time in our lives. My overall feeling to describe where I am today are below...lyrics from the song "You Can't Always Get What You Want". It's featured in a C2 commercial...
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"You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes well you just might find
You get what you need" - The Rolling Stones
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I have been blessed to have wonderfull people in my life. When I began the conscious phase of my spiritual journey, they came to me very easily. They just showed up or were placed in my path...a referral following a conversation with others. The people I met, I felt like I knew before. They delivered Keys and pieces to the puzzle that I struggled to put together at the time.

I have been through many different phases throughout my journey. All of these phases and pieces fit together. They have all been purposefull.

"We are both student and teacher at the same time." Origins unknown...But I can bare witness to its truth.

Sometimes we get locked/stuck in roles. We have difficulty balancing opposites. We should attempt fluidity in our relationships. To be able to move between roles and within roles. Openness. In order to receive the hand must be open. And with the invisible/spiritual, our hearts must be open too. Our brains, or rational selves often hinder us from seeing/hearing/feeling/knowing the spiritual.

I think it's Iyanla or maybe my Reiki teacher who says "turn your brains off" which means to me- don't let the senses (sight in particular) dictate the experience. There is a world in- and outside of us that exists that we rarely catch a glimpse of because the senses are too busy taking in the external.

Take time to sense and feel the space within...that place that connects us to everything and everyone.

Coca-Cola C2

This is my most favoritest commercial in the whole wide world. I love the song and the visuals of people doing whatever they are moved to do without restricting themselves because of age, or so-called status. Great commercial! Great message! Check it out...please!
Coca-Cola C2

sun flower

Reason, Season, Lifetime

They say people come in to your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I've often tried to hold on to people and demand that they be a certain something to me. The Love Space Demands: A Continuing Saga by Ntozake Shange. I love that title. It makes me wanna dive into the book and really understand/feel what that means. Space demands love? Loving enough to offer freedom. Spirit.

Today was a busy day. Telephone calls, faxes, emails, typing...Whew! It felt good though. I earned my keep- thats for sure.

It is a wonderfull sensation...to feel, feeling. I couldn't imagine going through life numb again. Sometimes I don't understand the feelings that show up, but I own them just the same. They, these feelings are mine and I welcome them.

I remember having the feeling as a child that I wanted something all to myself. I wanted all of my mother or father's attention. I wanted my special time. I still feel that way at times. I want MY time. My moment. Call me spoiled. It is often unrealistic to place demands with those who have not committed to offering themselves to us in that way. It's hard to negotiate getting our wants and needs met by others. We have needs but often deny them. We wanna be close to others, but to avoid being rejected we keep others at arms length. I am more inclined these days to take risks with others. Risk being close. Risk getting to know others. Risk them knowing me.

I am spoiled. I like connecting on deeper levels. I can't stand the superficial, although it has it's place. Everyone can't be close. It's definitely shouldn't be expected that others want or can handle the same. There should be flexibility when relating to others. Rigidity can cause a lot of pain. If we can't bend as needed, we're sure to get a few extra bumps and bruises along life's journey. So, I'm going to bend, be flexible and continue to honor myself.

December

Wow! Here again. Seasons, changes...what season am I in? This is the most interesting place. The urge to be a mother getting stronger and stronger. I need to get centered...really feel inside my body, commune with my organs and higher self to see if we are ready to bring forth life. Will I be blessed to nurture a grand soul? Will one choose I? This is an exciting time. Is this what the creative energies represent? Hmmm. December 2 thoughts...

Dream

Dream...Big she said.
How high? how far? how wide?
I am afraid to dream my biggest, grandest dream
Because I am afraid to be totally free
Spirit only...weightless
without burdens that ground me
Focused dreams...
What is the plan?
Many times my heart knows what I don't articulate well
The dreamer says I was fashioned
and shaped from black mud...Earth.
Inspired, life breathed in to me by the One...Ahhh!
What is the dream?
Mother...become
Father...commune with
Daughter...seed
Son...future
I will create my biggest, grandest dream
I see it fullfilled.

Spirit, weightless without fear, yes,
I shall return to air.
But not before I give to the Earth everything
she has given me...Life.

© 2004 Blackgold347

Common Dreams

Common Dreams