Thoughts converse...

I am constantly recalibrating, shifting
Refocusing, and becoming new again
...buffering (catching up)
...loading (receiving)

These things show up and force
Me to pay them some attention...
Why do you nag me so?
How else will you know where you go?
Destiny... You would not move (complacency)
If I didn't push you (motivation)
To go off to these places...
Opening doors
Welcoming your guests (feelings)
And settling matters with them (healing)

Yes, you are always shifting, recalibrating and becoming new
But are you willing to pay the price of stagnation?
I didn't think so...

Untitled

Maybe it waits for me
The way I wait for it
Maybe it will remain
In that place that is secure
Untouched
Untapped
Maybe it will forever live
Where possibilities exist
Never actualized
Never materialized
But always waiting
To be made real
Dreamed of
Fantasized...
It is so close that I can touch...
All of the ingredients...
Wow
A potent concoction of l.o.v.e.
Mixed with mystery
Mixed with never knowing

(c) Blackgold347

I really want to write, but I need something to get me going. Some quiet time, a quiet space so that I can hear and feel my own thoughts. Maybe I'll have an early bedtime tonight so that I can get up early and workout. Working out always helps me access that space...I'm going to vibe one way or the other...I'm going to get it out. #Heartspeak

I had no clue this morning when I woke up that I would come home in a new car. It's the best I've ever owned. Scary to get a new one when you have had a car payment in a long time but nice and exciting.

Today, tonight, I wish that I could be taken care of. Taken care of the way momma used to do. Stand there sleepy and have someone brush my teeth, wash my face, take my clothes off and put on my pajamas. Pick me up, put me in bed, and I just go to sleep like when I was 5. No, I don't want to be a five year old again. I don't want to be an invalid without any capability of caring for oneself. I just want to go to bed without me having to get ready for bed. A lazy moment...

It's easy to get things twisted and confused... I liked the movie the Matrix. It provided a good, physical framework of how things are not how they actually appear to be to the physical eye. Even the way we view things in our minds are constructs that we've created and we are the only ones that see it that way...sometimes when we share -verbally share- experiences we can see the other person's point of view, but it's still a different view, a different interpretation of a thing. How do we meet/agree? Where do we meet/agree? Can we ever share the same point of view? Or, do we just get close enough to understand the other?