Distraction

She looked every where
Hi and Lo
and without
every where but with-in
She noticed every detail of every other life
but never knew FULLY the mysterious
turnings, the revolutions within
While it was her inclination
to desire a better life
life had more in store
than theory and strife
Situations and occurrences came
that introduced her to her self
not the image or likeness
but the true essence
that was begging for recognition
the essence of BEing
in-spiration, in- spiral...helix, coding, dna, memory...
her distractions...doing, viewing, saying
all the actioning that she could involve and envelope
around herself she indulged
her readings
her sayings
her doings...
distractions
it supported the what was not happenings
on the inside.
she didn't want to deal with
the indecisions,
the lack of commitments
avoiding nudgings to go within
Every corner of her life
has revealed that she is,
that she can
that she will
but her thoughts have distracted her
her people and her aloneness
has left her feeling less than FULL
She wants to be a mommy
but distrusts the man she has once asked to bring her child
She wants to be and do great things
but her mood down shifts
to first going down slope
cruise control no longer allows her to speed
and she feels weighted as she waits
for something to happen
forgot that her movement
her imprint and vibration
has to accelerate
not yet to warp speed
but standing still, no longer vibrating is lifelessness
as she declines in to her own abyss
she realizes that her higher self has shown her
many versions of her self
she can choose her path
walk many at once as life sometimes demands
but she understands now which ever she chooses
she has to BE consciousness her presence is required
otherwise it is another distraction
she'll only collect stories of herself
impressions of her self, re-collections of witnesses
who caught sightings of her
She wants to be rooted
she needs to be grounded and tethered
to her mother, Earth where energy collects and spirals
not to be held down but a representative
on the middle plane between fire, matter and ether
when she settles her mind and connects with her divine kind
she will lose her distraction
she will float again
dance again
laugh again
she smiles
and it's genuine
until fear loosed ran amok
joining with like within her
She wants to stand outside herself
and see the inner workings of her
but that luxury cannot be afforded
she is resident inn-keeper
she can summon others to her aid
and the divine architect brought
her others that reflected her in all shapes, sizes and shades
he distracted her until she saw herself

© 2004 Blackgold347