Re-Collecting Memory, Perseverance & Movement

Yesterday, I drove by my old house in Suitland, Maryland. The house that I was taken home to after my birth. The house my dad made his transition in on the Saturday after Good Friday 1997. I was surprised to see that it's still standing. I can't remember the last time I drove by it. It felt weird to go by the old neighborhood that holds so many memories...memories stored in my psyche. It felt good to be back in Suitland and Marlow Heights. Who are we without roots? How firmly are we planted without them? Who are we if we don't stay connected to where we've been? There was a time when I wanted to forget many things that happened in the past. Now, I don't mind. I have made peace with so much of what happened in my past. In fact, I need to remember to keep moving forward. I want to remember. I felt like a part of me that I let go of re-joining me as I drove down the street. I saw old neighbors in the yard socializing...doing what they have been doing since I was a child. I even saw my first babysitter getting into her car.

What do we do with memories? I've often heard others say "don't live in the past". And, we shouldn't because we miss out on the NOW. But we must take from the past that which we need to be FULLy present, FULLy alive. It's learning from our triumphs and mistakes. So much time and energy is spent reacting to something that happening 10, 15, 20 years ago. And for some reason we can't understand why we keep re-living it in the now. Let's try something new.

I often feel weird because I am always pushing myself beyond my comfort zone. It's the only way that I've gotten to where I am in my life. It's the reason why I bought a drum set at 34. Who the hell buys a drum set at 34? One said I'm living my youth. Why can't adventure be a part of getting older? Why must it only be associated with youth?

Energy has to keep moving. I can't stand still and become complacent with whatever life delivers to my doorstep. I have to create the reality that I want to see, feel and live. I want to play with my brother's band one day. It's always been my dream to be a drummer and now it's here. I'm not perfect at it. (I just started.) The interest, natural ability and passion are there. It has to get better with practice. That's exciting!

Who says life has to be this way or that way? Who besides ourselves tells us we can't or can do something? So, it's never been done before. Be the first. Or, take it (whatever it is) to a level it's never been before. If no one else does, believe in yourself. Even when everything around you looks like you can't, know that you can. But remember, faith without works is dead. You have to do something. It's not No Action Required! like the advertisements tell you so that they can get money from your inactivity. Action IS required.

I want to get the most out of this life right here on Earth. We have to persevere. As Soul II Soul says...

"Keep on moving
don't stop like the hands of time

Click clock
find your own way to stay

The time will come one day.
Why do people choose to live their live this way?

Keep on moving
don't stop
no
keep on moving

Keep on moving
keep on moving
don't stop
no

Keep on moving.

It's our time
time today
the right time is here to stay

Stay in my life
my life always
yellow is the colour of sunrays.
I hide myself from no one
I know the time will surely come when -
You'll be in my life
my life
my life always

yellow is the colour of sunrays.

Keep on moving
don't stop like the hands of time

Click clock
fing your own way to stay
the time will come one day.

Keep on moving
don't stop
no
keep on moving
...

I know the time
time today
walking alone in my own way

Extremely cold and rainy day
friends and I have fun along the way

Yes
we do! I hide myself from no one

I know the time will really come when -
You'll be in my life
my life always

yellow is the colour of sunrays.

Keep on moving
don't stop like the hands of time
...
Keep on moving
don't stop
no
keep on moving."

I think I'll go listen to that now! Peace, Love, & Light Always!