Resistence

A lot of times I say I want change and resist when it happens. It doesn't always feel good to go through changes, but we take ourselves through them all the time. It's not always necessary either...but we create it. Sometimes drama filled changes...I've done that too. My creations...I'm not always proud of them, but they are mine and it reminds me that I am power-full. I've created so much stuff and sometimes while kicking and screaming to resist some other change a new one, a new self is sprouted. A different part of me outed. It's all good in the end...I just wish I could have seen some of that stuff in the beginning. In hindsight, I would have created differently...not with everything though. Just the stuff that left me numb. I lived with the joy and grew through the pain. That numb stuff...I seem to keep hashing up...creating again until I feel it.